Seasick, but still floating....
Friday, March 25, 2005

Well, I really like my new job...I genuinely like my boss and co-worker, and I like what I do. I just wish that I wasn't so wretchedly tired at the end of the day.

I finally actually got some books reviewed. I've been working on whittling down everything. I need to balance my life, work with pleasure, writing career with what pays my bills. I still edit, but I plan to probably cut my review places, keeping Fantastica Daily and Mostly Fiction for certain, but backing off from the others. I feel sorry about it, but...it's not really much fun right now, and I need to recapture the joy of it. Now I look at books, and instead of the joy, the happiness, because stories are, ultimately, the core of my soul, I see...work.

Now to get back to my book...*face desk.*

I also have majorly gotten back into the Napoleanic War era. I have a slew of books there I want to read, from the Hornblower and Aubrey/Maturin series and some more Sharpe books I found, to actual accounts of sailing ships and life. I also now *whispers* run a role playing community. The one I belonged to was closed, and so, i went, and began another. So...erm...I'm a manager again, lol.It's so nice...message baords are great, but...I run out of things to say about my life. Role playing, I can hang out with people and...I don't need to have anything to say about my life. I can make it up. And it's not very time intensive, now it's built.

Permalink Cindy scribed this at 11:06 PM 3 comments

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I thought I had posted a comment here. Hmm. I might've bagged it if blogger was running slow. Ah well. I do remember wanting to comment on the Napoleonic thing. Getting into that majorly? Heh. How about reading WAR AND PEACE? All 1400 pages of it! I've about 250 left to read.

You shouldn't go into hiding so often for so long.

By Blogger g d townshende, at 8:16 PM  

You are right, I shall endevour to improve. *grins, hugs you* Thank you.

War and peace, eh? Hmmm...Ok, i shall add that on my list...after the Aubrey-maturins, thje Hornblowers, the Sharpes....

By Blogger Cindy, at 9:41 AM  

It's quite good, actually! I finished it at the beginning of last weekend. I've now gone and jumped into two books. Have Space Suit - Will Travel, by Robert A. Heinlein, and The Gambler, by Fyodor Dostoevsky. I'm finding I really like those Russian blokes. I don't recall ever having to read them in high school.

By Blogger g d townshende, at 2:05 AM  

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  Life is Blindness
Sunday, March 06, 2005

I am tired of making guesses about life, but I suppose that is all life is, really, a series of guesses. Perhaps it should be treated as one big adventure, or one surprise party, but for those who long for stability, there is no real pleasure in that.

We all fumble through our lives blind folded. you can't get around that fact, it's there. You would be fine if you could se through walls, into people's heads, into the future. Then you would know what to do, everything would be so clear.

No one has that power, though. There may be a few people with Talent, but it's hazy, uncertain, sometimes worse than not knowing at all is knowing pieces. Truly. I have drempt things that have come to pass, and it did me no good to know.

Our souls and hearts and minds are a swirl of confusion, at least mine is, contending with one another, and though I often beg mine to let alone for awhile, to let me think, but they are so confused or longing or needy that they can't.

Ah, well.

Permalink Cindy scribed this at 12:14 PM 1 comments

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I liked that second paragraph. I'd probably still be married if that were true. However, my life would also be boring, I'm sure. I don't want to see into other people's heads. If I saw into my ex's head, I'd probably get some answers that I think I deserve, but that's a useless speculation. I think the idea that life is one big surprise party AND a big adventure is probably the best way to view things. Sometimes the surprises and adventures are drab and listless, and sometimes they are exhilarating, and other times they are boring, but rarely, rarely, rarely are they monotonous.

The only other thought that comes to mind is this: We are responsible for the nature of our life's adventures/surprises. It's an odd give-and-take sort of relationship. Take writing for example. If you want to live the adventure of a writer, then you have to go out and do writerly things. This will invariably bring on writerly surprises, not all of which may be pleasant, but they will be writerly, nonetheless. If, on the other hand, you want to live the adventure of a writer, but don't do writerly things, then your adventure/surprises will take on a plastic pallor and may likely become monotonous. How drab!

By Blogger g d townshende, at 4:48 AM  

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  Oh, I should update, eh?
Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Thanks for asking after me!

I'm sorry I haven't updated in ages. I now have a part time job...I work for a grant run program at my old college, for Adventures of the American Mind...it's teaching people how to use the Library of Congress Website. (www.loc.gov) and it's brillant! Mostly, anyway. I am having a hard time finding my balance. I was already doing way too much, and now, adding a job to it...*sighs* I will probably have to give up some reviewing palces, or something.

I'm so tired, I can't think of anything to say, save, hello, hugs, and take care. :)

Permalink Cindy scribed this at 9:17 PM 1 comments

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Gah! So busy! I thought you had dropped off the planet.

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